To Rationalize.

It just that I examined it more than once I indulge into my feelings with no concern of whether it is the right the thing to go through or not. for the sake of 'love'

of plain love.

and eventually it didn't work out. and I had to endure a lot of pain and aches and cries and loneliness and way too much of isolation.

so no

I am not denying my mind the right to decide this time. because I think a relationship is more than just heart matters.