I don't think I've ever been that confused or lonely. Ever before.It's more like an identity crisis yet I am refusing to take in any soul redemption and thoughts are very fragile to make any sense at all. they feel more like a dream where things are of dizziness and uncertainty and very far to catch.
I have never experienced something of such before.
but the one thing I can not confuse so far is the 'inevitability of fate' and the 'unpredictability of future'.